that's you!

huh. there you go.
looking all perfect, such perfectionist.
but youre nothing that i wanna be.
being perfect is super boring.
listen.we used to care about you.
ohh how we love you.
without the mask of yours, where will you hide.
mask of hypocrisy.
cant find yourself lost in your lie.
i know the truth now.
i know who u are.
and i dont love you anymore.
never was and never will be.
ure not real and you cant see me.

ngeeee!

 nak post new entry tp kinda need a lil rest.
i need to breathe in a moment.
nut,beck xde la super exhausted sgt.
im okay.
really excited actually to post about my hangout with my 'ol girlfriends.
----but,soon la.
how about tmrrow?
can eyh
hihi XP

it huuuurts!

menstrual cramps!

am not in a happy mode

been left home alone by mom and baba.
well,actually not really alone.
am a caretaker for my two younger brothers,hanif and iqbal.
have to cook.
have to do all the homeworks.
have to online.
have to monitor them doing online exercises.
have to feed those kitteh.
have to scoop all the poops.
have to do all the laundry.
have to do the dishes.
.......and im in the middle of my menstruation
urghhhh...!
tension.stressed.
im tired.super exhausted.
wanna hang out pun,no moood at all.
sometimes getting bored.
gotta see my taylor again.
there a few more kain that need to be jahit.
last night,been raining.
heavy pouring with all the lightning and thunder
am so scared huk3..
i need mom,my closet and it did blacked out.
3times plak tuh.
definitely wanna test my inner strength.
but am so glad and grateful to Allah as i got a friend..
..such friend that willing to accompany me even thru the line
keeping me calm and made me feel secured.
*cz am too scared of the dark*
gile terrified.
the windows are quivering and trembling.
the lights went out.
it's dark outside and on the inside.
thank Allah,my younger brother called me from the other rooms
and decide to sleep in my room.
*relieved*

anyway,t'shere a new song just came up at Radio Disney.
u shld google it.
c0z it's a song for me.
the pain by Menstruation.
*bhaahaha.jk.dnt google it.im just joking*
am actually..yea
tgh tahan sakit ni. >.< it huuuurts!!!
mom,baba..
pls come back soon.

last night i called salsya.
and i called love.
who had been pretty annoying.
and turned into a scum-douche for a bout few hours.
asking me silly Qs.
talking non-sense.
that's annoying man and im sick here.
pls do consider and understand my situation.
i dont wnna bad things came up when im like this.
coz i was tired,and when im tired i got angry.
and when im angry i can be super annoying.
--not just to u,but to almost everyone.

it's been a while

late night entry posted

it's not this common...for me

posting entries to my blog in the depth of night

this one actually....

--hurm how should i put this into words

oke.this one actually goes to sarah

shes a blogger too,well u can click on her name to reach her blog

and a cute junior of mine

   so,here it goes;

   it's been a while i havent bake

   so,bout 4hrs ago i decided to make my cookies

   i missed baking so much that 

   i almost faint when i took out the butter

   ha-ha

   and this sarah did aske me to post pictures of my cookies batch

   here they are

   only two shots alright

                                  

   the BEFORE

                             and---

   the AFTER

   and now im friggin tired

   oven,cookies and tuning in to RADIO DISNEY 

   for the whole   night while 

   baking these guys ya know

   the heat is on

   hah

   gonna clean up myself and rush to my comfy bed

   hardly need my nap now

   nighty night u guys!

x x x x

.beck.

VICTORY,but im gloomy and glum

what a great Monday

for the first time ever,im loving my Monday

Chelsea won over Arsenal 2-0

New Orleans Saints won over Indianapolis Colts

but lately im shaking quite often

[xkan la Parkinsons kot ha-ha]

while im on my scooter or driving

i felt that my body is shaking

not feeling well

and sometimes felt very exhausted

perhaps this is because of the weather

but,i dont know

......

as for zul and i,

lately im not seeing him much

bored of him perhaps

i ask him to not to bother me

...and im also been quite messy lately

feels like i want each and every person in

my life to stay away from me in a moment

x x x x

my Saturday

so,hi u guys

happy Saturday!

im doing quite nothing today.

absolutely relax.i need rest

'cos last nite i was like 'bertungkus lumus' baking, preparing etc. my cuppycakes

order for kak Leeya who's getting ready for her big day

tomorrow.her wedding.

so,she ordered 100 choc flavoured cupcakes for souvenirs and also

16 specially decorated cupcakes for her hantaran on the pahar

totally tired meh

my onichi and i slept at 5.45 a.m. last night

and today,i woke up at 11 a.m. 'cos onichi woke me up for breakfast

today,since there's Bro Tofic,so he's the one who bought our breakfast today

three of us are having nasi kerabu while Bro Tofic had his nasi lemak

looking forward to see some movies afterwards,waiting for zul

hurm...

okey.

gonna call someone after this

wanna hangout or maybe do some shopshop with syakirah

Onichi and Bro Tofic already left to Jengka

'cos they're gonna hand over the cuppacakeys Kak Leeya ordered from me

...and also they wanted to see their parents'

err i guess that's all for now

i'll update my blog soon

muuuachs~! >.<

Chilli's 'R Us

breakfasting at The Chilli's Suria KLCC

had a great sembangsembang time

faisal(manap) me(beck) awwiz

also had our Starbucks by the park

wandering all over Suria KLCC

snapsnap some picasas

great time,good food,giggles and giggling,happy moment

peace wt tongue XP

...again...tongue

between Stuart Weitzman and Pucci

XD

hikhikhik giggles

awwiz ni.mainmain hikhik

breakfasting:still be in the studio

yesterday was Sunday

... and Sunday supposed to be SUN-day

and supposed to be everyone is enjoying their weekend

meanwhile.....

i had my photoshoot on Sunday

demmdemmdemm

so tiring

camera...checked

spotlight...checked

model...checked

lighting...checked

etc. etc.

lame lame lame

breakfasting time

still be busy

my tummy turning in and im feeling kinda homesick

haih~

i called McDelivery for my breakfasting meal of the day

ordered MVMeal Big Mac with fries and coke

MVMeal Big 'N Tasty with fries and iced Milo

together with Chocolate Sundae since that day was SUNday

so sad

so bad

went home

feeling tired

a bit nausea

onichi picked me up from studio

we send syakirah over her college first

...then we went home

sleepy~

let's do this

omigosh omigosh

can't wait to be home

to see my family and brothers and sisters

i miss 'em so so much

haha

"you can change your hair

you can change your clothes

you can your mind 

'coz that's the way it goes

you can say goodbye, you can say hello

but you're always find the way back home...

you can change your style 

you can change your dream

you can laugh and cry

but everybody knows

you will always find your way back home"

exactly, i'll always find my way back home

ok.

here it is

me and my onichi got everything prepared

at about 7 p.m. we begin our journey

hehe...

but before that,we went to Cat Centre at

Jln Beserah, owned by our beloved Dr. Jawahir,

a very kind-hearted vet to buy Hill's Science Plan Feline Adult Tuna 

as for kakaaang. Lyna will come and get the pack as

we are quite rushing so that we won't arrive too late 

we also stopped by the Mc Donald's Drive-Thru Telok Chempedak to grab

something to eat cause onichi was like  so annoying complaining that

she's so hungry.

ok then,we ordered one large set of McChicken and regular set

of Double Cheese Burger with iced Milo and Coca cola.

then we received one chocolate sundae as McD's appreciation 

to Drive-Thru users hahaha.whatever.i like it.

first 2hours,onichi was driving....until 8.45 p.m. she asked

me to take over the car as she said that her shoulder's hurt so bad

so,we pulled over by the road...and i took over

 we really didn't expected that it's gonna rain last night

in the beginning,the rain did showered quite a few drops

then about 5mins later,it was a huge splash

i can't believe it

onichi was sleeping like a baby...i supposed

cause i saw her was so quiet and calm

and then she did asked me wether i'm ok or not

i said,i'm ok [thou my eyes was quite blurred and i'm actually rabun haha]

but i was actually really am okay

still can see hehe

during the heavy shower, there are lightnings all over the sky

quite scarred sometimes but,

.... i do feel grateful to Allah and the lightnings

cause it could help me to see better as the lightning stroke

hihi...

so,as i drove along the night... i changed the radio station from Hitz.fm to

TraxxFM. . . and again, i couldn't believe it, TraxxFM aired most of the song

from my favorites haha. thanks TraxxFM...maybe Traxx do knew that

in my onichi's car there's none of her CDs are great with good songs haha

oh gosh,the rain was so heavy and thick

so we stopped at a Petronas gas station in Bandar Permaisuri

as the weather is getting cold and colder, we really need the toilet haha

...and i again, continuing my drive to kelantan

we arrived at about 11.30 p.m. and been welcomed warmly

by my sibling

so very happy to be home

...yet,so tired and felt like i was totally drained

sleep time after that

zzzz...

this ain't a fairytale

oh gosh.

so very tired today

lots of stuff going on

went everywhere including

The Mid Valley, Vista Angkasa etc.

some shops, some games,

some training, some pizzas,

some chit chats,some love

...and so MUCH fun!!

haha~!

i need to go to sleep now

taaaa everyone

dem,ros...i'll get my hand on u hahaha!! [laugh like a monster while rubbing my big tummy]

i post this entry in english as usual Bahasa to someone called ROS;evil ROS:

         mentang mentangla awak dh abes exam kan...awak suke je nk  wat saye jealous kan. tape tape.UTM Skudai memang cenggitu. siap la. saye punye exam pon dah nak abes. bila exam saye dah abes, tau la saye ape nak buat. terutamanye terhadap cik ros nazira,anak encik jamili serta puan mak [nama sudah lupa hek3~]. 

awak nampak tak muke saye tu cik ros, berdenyut denyut taw tgk awak dah abes exam. dah la,dah.pegi prepare pape yang patut,pegi kemas barang barang awak, pegi draw encik duit banyak banyka, beli tiket,,,balik KL sepantas mungkin [w'pon saye tau awk mmg akan balik esk ngeheheh :D] 

balik cepat. ngehehe.... [sambil bermuka licik..].nnt dah sampai KL,kirim salam kat puan MAK ye.

dah dah dah ....saye mau continue kembali ke alam STUDY saye  ...haih,penatnye arini study.  canni gaye boleh tertido nih. lagi 2paper beck..saba saba. the time will come.

takpe takpe. hari ni, hari freedom ros. minggu depan, beck punya freedom. muahahahahaha~!!!!

semoga saye akan study dengan sekeras kerasnye, tapi harap harap xmati keras cnni hahahaa :))

love the day

hey hey hey~
so,how's today hanging?u guys oke??
as for me,kinda oke.not really bad

there only one class to attend today since i've finished wit my telecommunications laboratories and workshops

just came back,a bit tired.i 've had a meet up with a friend hehe.
wanna know who??well,let's give it up to miss salsyabilla abu hussin
i parked my cutie-scootie-mootie at the pasar besar gombak.
hehe...she picked me up at there and heads to Carrefour.
at first,bought a pendrive for salsya's lil bro,Amad[who is already in Std.3...i've met him before and at that time they came to my house and Amad was just so lil that time].
she belanja me McD and we'v had some chit chats coz it's been
quite a while havent sit and talk together - gather...miss her so much
gossiping,giggling,laughing etc. sort of stuffs that some girls wud do haha

before we went home, into Carrefour market again coz her friends ask her to buy some stuff
later,off straight home :)

salsya dropped me to pasar again a take a look at my cutie-scootie-mootie for a while
then she drove back to uia
hihi...totally looking forward seeing her again
we've had so much fun today even just in a short moment

so,i arrived home and found out that my ciksu already in
p/s: lately she return home early and i like that... :D

gotta stdy and finished my paperworks etc.
tata everybody..
*mmmuachs~*

atashiwa happy~

aheh...well,good day everyone...just came back from my studio
so,i guess i should get some rest..
but i was so happy today

since yesterday,i've been showered with some good news from people surrounding me
it's including a call from my lawyer,mr. grewal singh bout the case involving my accident that will be brought to the court in the very most,two weeks time...really hoping that it went well,and smooth without any complications..'coz i need this case to be settled as quick as possible.

and more,i got a call from syakirah...my lil sis...saying that she passed her driving test grooving-ly haha..with huge grin from ear to ear..duuuh~..syakirah,cmon.gimme a break la
haha...i know that she must be so-very-happy from now on
but she's still working on preparing herself for the motorcycle test...so,all the best ya syakirah..kakak will always pray for u~ (>.<) hehe :)

and ...today is the 6th day i'm driving lyna's car...haiya..quite tiring.but,oke what.i need not to worry if there's rain or too hot weather etc. ..haha got LYNA's car as my transport
haha...the best part is,i can tumpangkan my friends to class...and it's so much fun.

love u LYNA...*mmmuachs*...hehe :D
tomorrow nite lyna is coming back to KL.cant wait to see her again...
...and i do have to return back her car also hik3
then starting next week,i'm back with my cutie scootie mootie~ hehe...miss u scootie~!
let's conquer DUKE Highway muahahaha~!!
p/s:just kiddin,u guys


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so...hurmm ok-la
need to sleep.
so exhausted

*sigh*

what a lazy person i am
woke up late
didnt manage myself precisely
bad time management etc.
haha..

i went to my studio today since
i missed my class
cos of the rain hehe :)
so,at about 3pm...
after had my lunch of nasi kukus ayam dara :P
so i prepared myself
prepare my scootie mootie as well
then,
off we go to studio

as i reached my studio,
without any hesitation i asked shafika
about her SPM result
and she said that she didnt perform well
and the result is not excel as others
but i wont mind that
i congratulate her on her result
for me,it's a huge matter
for a student to try their best
and shouldnt push too hard
as the result has come out...
...then,that's it
we should be proud of ourself and
feel grateful for what we had achieved
so,CONGRATULATIONS Shafika!!
p/s: da dpt IPTA nnt gtaw akak ek hehe :D

today aint so busy
but sales for today do greater compared to
other days back
*except for during school holidays hehe

i dunt know why...but i do feel different today
a bit tired,maybe because of too much sleep
...or,i dont know
i feel so very helpless today
it's like having insufficient energy to
energize my body to cheerfulness
..but i still cud smile
it's just together wit a pinch of bitter

shafika did told me that she want to treat
me makan today haha :))
at first i tot that she's joking
but she's serious about it
she told me that she really meant it coz
the other day,she did blnje everybody
with pizza,but i didnt come to the studio at that time

so then,afta work
we went to JJ Wangsa Maju
and she treat me dinner hehe
really glad to eat wit shafika
together with kak ika and bro Sha

had some chit chats then off we went home
but before that,
i did send shafika home before
i went to see zul.

few minutes later,zul arrives
had some drinks and grab somethin to eat
i went home
still be,very tired
so exhausted
fuuuh~


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