there's a moment in time ...*sigh*

i got 6 miscalls from zul last night

saying that he barely able

to breath.

i don't know what had happened

because, i was technically

already asleep at that time

it was 3.45 a.m., so very early in the morning

even the bird still having nap at this moment

he said that he did called

but i didn't picked up

he thought that i don't want him anymore

well,actually... YES

haha

so, this morning he came

absolutely UNINVITED force me to go out with him

haiya, whatever. i said that i have never had

such people forcing me that way and

i haven't had my bath yet. but he insisted

so, i asked him to wait for about half and hour

so that i could prepare myself... since i just woke up

duuh~

so, the story begin

he said that last night while he arrived home

which i don't know at what time

but, i'm very sure late

he read messages from me saying that:

don't look out for me anymore

i'm fed up with you, everything about you and etc.

go find someone else better bla bla bla . . .

he said at that time, was like can't really breath well

he was like gasping for air

so, he decided to go to some clinic nearby

but no clinic opened at that kind of time

so zul drove to HUKM and ask for check ups

the doctor said that: 

u haven't had enough rest lately

in fact, u're working in a fully air-conditioned office

and that puts you exposed to dehydration and tiredness

doc got him sent to an area referring as

"ruang bantuan oksigen" 

in my own words,

where he had been put oxygen mask

for about some moments

when he done,

he went home.

that's it.

he said nobody know about this

except for

ME

hurm... well, i want him to find someone who's

a better person to take care of him. i am not able to do that.

'cos i'm naughty. love to play around, rude, i'm bad etc.

he used to barely able to breath before this

many times

at that time, i know that this is serious

my mom did asked me to tell zul to tell his family

but,he just

DIDN'T

dunno...mom said,i can never let my son be like that

look at your abang, chah. almost every week i called him

i can never let my son be alone, even any of my child

i replied:

i don't know mom, sometimes i just don't understand life

well,zul

no matter what happen

i will try to help you ... in many ways

maybe we can just be friends

u know how i care about my friends right

so, it's ok for us to be friends